#I HOPE UVE BEEN WELL THO !!!

[baeshijima]

HELLO IM CLAWING MY WAY OUT FROM IA TO SAY HAPPY 4.1 LIVESTREAM FOR TMRW AND NEUVILLETTE REVEAL AND WRIOTHESLEY REVEAL AND NEUVILLETTE KIT AND NEUVILLETTE WEAPON AND NEUVILLETTE BANNER AND NEUVILLETTE STORY QUEST AND NEUVILLETTE NAME CARD AND NEUVILLETTE RUNNING AROUND AND JUMPING ON OUR SCREENS AND NEUVILLETTE IDLES AND NEUVILLETTE VOICE OVERS AND NEUVILETTE IN THE TEAPOT AND NEUVILETTE ICONS AND SOON NEUVILLETTE PV AND DEMO AND COLLECTED MISCELLANY AND NEUVILLETTE

and also im moving into my university dorms on sunday morning so i will still be somewhat ia until sunday or monday 🫡

[dekkarios]

✧. *. ⋆

[miss-floral-thief]

not dead/burnt yet 👍

[softavasilva]

noooooooo i'm so sorry to hear u are in the trenches </3 the cancellation came in the middle of finals week for me i was like. Are You Serious. LMAo. can i ask what flavor of trenches you are in or is that too personal? is it school?

oof that sucks bc the same thing happened to me jfnjf. im on my last week of school so you can imagine how stressful it was to focus on any type of academic work when ur devastated by a fucking show jnfjrnr

i hope youre doing okay though and getting through the finals week with nothing but aces. im rooting for u <3!

[gvtted-ratz]

read all our tags/ratings. they r important n give u all u need 2 decide if u wanna actually read or not. do not like the tags/rating? do not read.

FEM ALIGNING/IDENTIFYING PPL (unless mutuals/friends) DNI WITH OUR MLM WORKS. fem ppl can still request tho. respect our wishes or get blocked. yes we do read/check everything. we tag appropriately/use tags that go with our posts.

want 2 request? find the rules: here!

want 2 see all the fics? find em: here!

Mission Failed

Simon “Ghost” Riley x M!Reader x John “Soap” MacTavish

Last Edited: 17/03/2023

TW: slight angst, foul language, violence, blood, gore, gunshot wound, death mention

@denzellovehazelnuts: Hi! hope you have a good day! Can you do a poly "Ghost x male reader x Soap" (if you comfortable writing poly relationship) with slow burn, angst and fluff at the end? Where Ghost and Soap already in a relationship until the reader came into their team The two male thought the reader wasn't talkative around people but few weeks later, things change at first Ghost seems interesting in the male skill using gun and how fast he can run and Soap like the male sense of humour. Both of them thought it only a friendship type of things. Until the male save Ghost from the enemy on the battlefield and him laughing at Soap jokes. That when the two males known what happen to them, they weren't sure if M/n would comfortable in a relationship with them, so they start doing small things for him like making coffee or helping training,.. And M/n notice it, he even started to fall for the both of them. But he keep denying the things they did for him because he thought that what friend do. and M/n don't think he is ready for a new relationship, he wasn't sure he is good enough for them (the male got trauma from the previous relationships) (more angst please, I would like to suffer for a little bit) (・∀・) After a while, the three of them got into a mission together, everything went good until the male got shot. He thought he going to be de@d soon (only to find out that he only got shot at his leg) so M/n confessed how he feel about the two of them. (andddd I don't know what to do with the ending cause I'm ran out of idea. I would want to see how the treated each other when got into a relationship. Sorry about the grammar, English isn't my first language)

Word Count: 2,654

AO3 LINK -> HERE

Notes: hiiii! i dont do heavy angst but i did do some u know? slow burn it is!!! srry it took so long! irl things hold me back a lot. N since u wanted slow burn, n with all that uve put (about 350 words of things i can work on/with 2 get this drawn out as a full-on fic!! yay!) i had 2 like. try n put all u wanted in there so yea! hope u enjoy!! also! i threw in some other characters like gaz n roach. hope u dont mind em being in here since this is like, a mash of cod n codmw2 (canon? what cancon?) cause i rlly do wanna put some other characters in here that i find interesting n build some sort of character/personality 4 the reader. reader deserves some cool friends-2-brothers!

At first, you hadn’t wanted to join Task Force 141. You were comfortable with your position as the quiet, but light on your feet, knife specialist. Well, that wasn’t truly your title. You were just good with knives. You weren’t too shotty with a gun either. Either weapon being in your hands meant blood was going to be shed. KorTac needed those types, especially those who could use it to get in as well as out; you also couldn’t forget about using your skills to get information. Torturing the prisoners wasn’t something you particularly liked, but you were good at it too. Combining your skills with knives and guns, it truly was hell for anyone on the opposite side of your team. You also couldn’t forget that, out of the others, you were much faster. Sure, some could still beat you at times but that didn’t mean you weren’t good. Bets had been constantly taking place with you, along with others as it was one of the few things any of you could do to pass the time in a less-than-bloody manner.

The transfer from KorTac to Task Force 141 wasn’t smooth. Horangi, or Kim Hong-jin, didn’t let you go for weeks. You were part of his team, one of his men. The leader of KorTac is what most of you saw him as. He knew many of you like the back of his hand. Not to mention, a tiger can be cruel but would never devour its cubs for no reason, well, as some say. As far as you knew, because you were all together, you were a team and therefore family. While there were others who didn’t get along, out in the field, all of you had each other’s back. Very rarely did anyone get left to perish to the enemy.

With all that in mind, it took weeks for him to let you go. More or less, Laswell was the one to convince him; that is if you call bringing each plus every person in KorTac to ruins as “convincing”. She wanted you on a team she could keep tabs on you; doubting her power and skills was out of the question. Which meant leaving KorTac to ensure that everyone else was free from possible imprisonment or death was necessary.

Fitting in wasn’t too hard considering most of the people there were from all over the place. While it’s odd for a member from another team to suddenly appear on another, it didn’t bother most of the others. Just from a glance, you could tell who was into who; as well as who exactly was in a relationship. A man by the name of Ghost including another called Soap, you knew were together. Soap flirted with almost everyone, though it was more teasing and lighthearted. With Ghost though? The flirting went up by twenty percent. His dial for teasing went up tenfold too. Meanwhile, Ghost hardly looked at anyone else, nevertheless, stare at them unless they were the Scottish man. Frankly, you didn’t mind. Who were you to judge the two? Especially when they were good at what they did.

It takes weeks before you’re comfortable enough to so much as talk to anyone 141. Gaz, or Kyle as Soap tended to call him when annoyed, is the first to so much as approach you. While the others are interested, you coming from KorTac had put them off for a bit. Gaz on the other hand treats you like a brother. He’ll throw his arm around your shoulder, dragging you around as he laughs about the past or even at your jokes. At meals, he always throws a raised eyebrow at those who look at you oddly when you’re quiet or sitting with the man. He treats you like you’re part of the team, furthermore, that truly means more than anything to you.

The man is just as bloodthirsty as you are. His stories of falling out of planes along with taking out enemies only lead to you looking up to your new teammate and brother. His tales of meeting Captain Price, past missions, a few tidbits of him being with the SAS, together with some metals he’s earned, only makes you want to pry more stories from the man; not like you don’t have to try. Simply asking about his stories leads to at least an hour-long spill of them from the guy.

And with his stories comes a few of your own. You don’t share much of them, knowing Gaz spreads them to the rest of the team with more dramatics to try to get you to interact with the others. Something you do learn about him that you always keep in mind from his stories is that his blood type is B Negative and shooting any dog, wild or not, makes him feel a bit guilty; he had to shoot one a while ago and apologised to the poor mutt after having to put it down to finish his mission.

With all that he’s shared and how the both of you see each other as brothers, it’s only fair that you let yourself talk to the others in the team. Though your words are short, along with your jokes being told quickly to distract yourself from the stressful situations, you allow yourself to slowly relax with the others. Gaz’s constant support helps you finally allow yourself to bond with your new team and family. It’s only after a mission that things change. 

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –

“Take the left! Keep your heads down and keep movin’!” Captain Price’s voice rings out in your earpiece. Everything has gone to shit. The intel you’ve been getting was entirely a trap. You’re running through an underground tunnel, Ghost and another man named Roach is running in front of you.

Roach is a quiet man, never talking or letting out a sound, but semi-friendly. From his actions and what you’ve been told of him, he does his best to complete the missions to the tea. The few interactions you’ve had with him were silent but nice. Whether or not he’s mute has crossed your mind time and mind again but you don’t ask; you’d rather leave the man be. After all, he has become something like a friend maybe even another brother.

“Copy. We’re nearly out. Roach and [Redacted] are with me,” Ghost responds, quickening his pace. The rifle smacks against your back as you speed up to keep up with the other two men. Despite the situation, the three of you remain as calm as you can be.

“You’re bein’ tracked like a rabbit is by a hound, Ghost! Move it!” The captain’s orders are clear and the worry is read between the lines. If you three don’t get out, it’s a huge blow to 141. Not only that, but Soap loses his boyfriend, Gaz loses two of his best friends as well as brothers, you three lose your lives, and Task Force 141 loses three of its members. Dying isn’t an option here.

“We have company,” Your words are muffled by your gear but the two soldiers in front of you hear them in their own pieces.

“Fuckin’ hell-” Ghost’s sentence gets cut off by gunfire from behind. Turning around, you fire the Lachmann Sub in your possession.

“We gotta go! They’re gaining!” You clip one of the enemies in the shoulder and another is hit in the stomach. Picking up the speed, the three of you try to beat them out of the tunnel. You cover the back, hoping the two get out before you. If you get surrounded, it’s over.

Thankfully, they haven’t reached the other end of the tunnel as the three of your burst out of the exit. You grab a grenade, pull the pin and throw it in the tunnel. As soon as it leaves your hands, you’re running faster to get to Roach and Ghost before anything else can; one arm wraps around each of your teammates’ necks, dragging them down to the ground as the little metal bomb goes off. Debris flies everywhere, looking for an area to land after being shot out of its place.

With the tunnel exist now collapsed along with no more flying rock and metal, you release the men. “How copy?” Crackles through each of your earpieces. You knock your forearm into Roach’s upper arm, eyes crinkling from your smile. He gives you a grateful nod, standing. You smack Ghost’s arm as he stands, glad to have escaped the enemies for now.

“Tunnel’s collapsed. We’re good. Ready for extraction, Sir,” Blunt and straight to the point are the skull-masked man’s words.

“Good. Heli’s close by. Move to the edge of the town.” With the three of you alive, you can practically feel Captain Price’s relief.

“Copy that, Captain,” Your muffled response comes before Ghost can send in his own. He scans you from the corner of his eye but doesn’t give you a retort. You do, however, hear a small huff of air leave him. You throw your arm around Roach’s neck again, puffs of air leaving you from happiness, meanwhile, his arm comes around your back. Seems the three of you live another day.

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –

After that mission, Ghost tends to lurk around you more than he originally had. It didn’t help that Soap tends to tag along as well. Thankfully, he finds your jokes hilarious if the loud, boisterous laughter he lets out all the time tells you anything. His teasing ends up piling onto you as well. Before, it was light as well as spread out. Now, it’s almost like he’s talking to Ghost with all the teasing and flirting he now does with you. His boyfriend hardly seems concerned but rather encourages his behaviour. Of course, that doesn’t mean he goes easy on you when the two of your spar together. He’s dead serious when it comes to sparring; it’s only a reminder that while he does good off, he’s just as dangerous as the rest of them.

The two men seem to be fixated on wanting to help you out in training as well. More pointers plus tips are thrown your way when you practice with either of them. Sometimes, they’ll even make you coffee for those sleepless nights. Mentioning such things to Gaz and Roach only leads to your sworn brothers giving you knowing looks or a few teasing words; Gaz is the one with the teasing remarks while Roach pats your shoulder in a mocking but teasing “you poor man” way. Neither seems keen on wanting to spill the tea on why the Scottish and British men have been more affectionate.

While you enjoy their kind gestures, including their company, you’re not sure if you’re ready to admit to yourself, or them, about such feelings or relationships. On the surface, you truly do want to ask them if this is some sort of flirting schtick they have going on. Deep down though, the idea of being with anyone again makes your stomach fill with the lead. How could you enter another relationship? After the last one ended with your soon-to-be fiance’s brains splattered all over a brick wall. How can you move past that? How can you allow yourself to find someone like them? Or even better than them? The answer to that is a sigh alongside a bitter smile. The ring hiding under your tactical gloves seems to burn your skin. Truly, how can you let your first love go? After all, if you weren’t good enough to keep them alive, how can you keep these two from meeting the same gorey end?

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –

“To think I’d find myself here… How fuckin’ funny,” You mumble. Another mission, this one just like all the others. Well, it would have been if you hadn’t been shot. The blood leaking from your leg alongside a knife wound to your side leave you in pain. Feeling weak isn’t something uncommon but neither is it constantly happening. Words are being spoken to you through your headset. You were to be the lookout but ended up being the enemy's first target.

“How copy?” Rings in your ears. Your eyes stare blankly in front of you. You feel pathetic. Too tired to talk. Too tired to get up. You just sit, popped up against a tree in the heavily wooded area. You’ve failed, failed, failed.

“C’mon, Mate, how do ya copy?” Soap’s voice is worried and winded. He and Ghost are the people you’ve been teamed up with and you’ve failed.

“[Redacted], how copy?” The next tone is Ghost’s. It sounds slightly strained.

“Mission Failed,” You croak, head tilted back and against the tree.

“Status report, Mate. Where are ya?” He’s rushing, possibly panicked now.

“Got two wounds. Gunshot to the thigh. Knife to the side. Bleeding pretty bad, Soap.” You close your eyes, sighing.

“State your location.” The Brit seems to be just as worried as his Scottish counterpart.

“Dunno. Woods. Against a tree… There’s a lot of blood. Feelin’ woozy.” When you open your eyes, your sight is blurred. You’re losing too much blood.

“Keep talkin’ to us then, yeah? You’ll make it out. We’ll get out together,” The Scot’s words, though hopeful, only make you scoff quietly.

“You know… If I get outta here… Think we can go out sometime? Bourbon and whiskey? The three of us?”

“When we get out, [Redacted]. There’s no if here,” The masked man makes it sound final like there’s no way you’ll die on them.

“Yeah… Yeah..” You don’t say anymore, everything slowly hazing away. It’s like your floating in winter with how cold you feel.

“[Redacted]? Don’t sleep! C’mon! Keep ya eyes open!” Soap’s words fade away along with everything else. All that waits is cold darkness.

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –

“So… Think you can handle our drinking date after this?” Soap perches on the side table, messing with a lighter he took from Ghost.

“After he’s healed, Johnny. No alcohol before,” A semi-scolding is all the man gets from the brooding Ghost. You laugh slightly, jostling your wounds. You wince but wave off the concerned looks you get.

“After I’m no longer full of holes, Johnny-boy.” You take a sip of water afterwards, making Soap frown playfully.

“And to think I was gonna bring out the good shit fer ya. A shame. A damn shame.” You gently shake your head. It was a close call but Ghost got to you before you completely bled out. From what you’ve been told by Gaz, who yelled at you for an hour after you woke up from your four-day sleep, Ghost and Soap dragged you back to the helicopter. Both refused to leave your side. Captain Price ended up having to yell at the men and bribe them with a bit of alcohol to get them to even go to their own rooms. You made sure to apologize to Gaz, hugging him tightly after his blow-up. He thought he was going to lose a friend and family member so you couldn’t blame him.

Roach gave you the cold should for a while before appearing in your room with a cup of coffee. He made sure to smack the back of your head for your stupidity as well, though it was hardly rough. You grabbed the man before he could so much as bolt though when he saw you getting up to hug him. He hadn’t pushed you away though. And the captain? It felt like you were a kid again with how he pinned you with his stare. He made sure to tell you exactly how he felt, going from angry, to disappointed, to angry again. Another guy you couldn’t blame anything on. But you get to live another day at least. And you get to have that date with the two guys who were able to grab ahold of your heart after a long-time of heartache and loss.

[cadaverre]

𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞

hi everyone and welcome back to junos monthly newsletter !!! i hope uve all had a wonderful month, whether its getting warmer or colder where u are (thank god its warming up here i would be dying if it was still winter) and i hope u enjoy this months edition ★ 

𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲

this month was actually one of my fav months of the year so far, my mental health is doing so much better and im finding that the weather is really impacting that. usually its not this warm and sunny but i am so fucking thankful it is !! i had my huge performance this month and it made me super excited to join more music groups and js about performance in general, its such a wonderful night of the year and i always feel so sad when its over !

𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜

monthly playlist charm - clairo manic - halsey short n sweet - sabrina carpenter  hypochondriac - brakence better off - esha tewari home video - lucy dacus

𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐬 + 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰𝐬

» buffy the vampire slayer - up to season 2 i started watching this show this month and ohh my god i love it !! buffy is such an icon and i love the plot and general vibes, i cant wait to watch more ( cordelia, drusilla and buffy are my fav characters so far btw ) » the perks of being a wallflower (rewatch) - 9/10 i always forget how devastating this movie is and then i watch and im like oh! this is soul destroying! but i love it soso much and it always makes me cry » jennifers body - 9.5/10 oh my god. i love this movie soo much megan fox is so fucking hot and its so iconic and aah im. yeah. love.  » (500) days of summer - 8/10 love this movie !! i loveee the non linear storytelling and i think the acting suits the genre and vibes so well, it wasn’t boring at all which i loved. very nice chill vibes tho » deadpool - 8/10 this movie is soso silly, i love the dynamic camera and again, the non linear storytelling is so yummy. i did not appreciate the like 20 min sex scene as i watched this w my dad but i rlly wanna watch the second one !! » janet planet - 4.5/10  idk this movie gave me weird vibes u can read my review here » thirteen - 8.5/10 the vibes? immaculate. wardrobe? im so jealous. taking drugs? not cool. very stressful at times but i still loved it

𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐬

» lolita - unfinished still reading it !! its a little hard to get through but i do like picking it up and reading a few pages every day, its getting so strange but the writing is so enchanting i cant stop reading lowkey … hopefully it’ll be done by the end of next month !! » the virgin suicides - unfinished been reading this occasionally and ohh my god i love it. the whole narration/how its being told from a sort of unknown perspective in a documentary style is so yeah. im so fucking hyped to finish it » my year of rest and relaxation - unfinished yes i am reading three books at once and yes it is slightly inconvenient but !!!! i got this book recently and its so… dreary?? but i love it ?? i feel like i dont have to have my literary analysis hat on to read it which is nice compared to the other books im reading rn.

𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐛𝐨𝐚𝐫𝐝 / 𝐚𝐞𝐬

𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

@dandelions-fly-in-summer-skies + lmk if u wanna be tagged !!

[kurosagileo]

couple thoughts on the obscuary episode if anyone's interested

I keep thinking about doing this kinda post but keep putting it off lmao

if people are interested in My Thoughts i might reread the chapter and go more in depth on like analysis, but this is just general thoughts after reading

so first things first, lyca is absolutely hands down adorable, I love him so much he reminds me of my friend's dog who is so excited all the time about being a good boy but also has the most wistful stare uve ever seen. I love that lyca's kept naivety and hope for the future despite the fucked up shit that darkwick put him through, and was so scared when he mentioned his first friend because i Knew how that was gonna end and then.. it did like that

rui living up to the malewife allegations, doing all of the cooking and cleaning around the place, making sure lyca gets up for school in the morning. i remember @/danieyells (i think) made a post at one point about the quiz at the beginning mentioning not sleeping and i was like oh!! thats rui now! but also god i couldn't imagine not sleeping like that is my favorite hobby

ed reminds me of a guy from korra who got airbending and his mom was trying to force him to join the airbenders and he was like absolutely not i'm staying in the basement you cant make me do anything. i didn't realize at first with the img of him when you first meet him that he's barely got his vest buttoned at all lmao. my fave scene with him is at the end where cornelius and moby are like well but you guys lied on this report and ed is like oh yeah where and theyre like ed wouldn't sign this he's too lazy and ed is like wow thats so crazy look over this way for a second tho? and they're like ed????

overall, though i felt like this episode fell flat compared to the others

i think the other episodes had a better balance of action from the anomaly case, building character relations, and progressing the overarching story with regards to darkwick and mc's curse. this chapter definitely had the second two, but not so much the first one. the anomaly felt like it was just an afterthought, and without that driving the plot for the chapter, it didn't feel as strong. the other episodes felt more like they could stand strongly on their own while being part of the main story

it might be personal preference, but it just didn't feel as strong without the central focus on an anomalous mission. my favorite chapters so far have been jabberwock, vagastrom, and sinostra (but also like vagastrom bias lmao so take that with a grain of salt) and i think it really worked to have the interactions centered around the anomaly, while also opening things up with the main story and information about the curse and the Clash and the spy/traitor. in contrast, this chapter didn't have the central focus to work with and in my opinion felt more like something that would be a side story that fits between episodes

again though this is just my opinion and overall i did enjoy the chapter, I just didn't find it as strong or compelling as the other ones so far but if u got this far i'm curious to know your opinions !!

[epiphainie]

I’m sure uve seen the news that lone star is ending after season five and grace isn’t coming back for the last season. The cancellation news brought up a discussion that I think was quite interesting and wanted to know ur thoughts 👀

Someone mentioned that Tim must’ve known or had an idea that season five would be lone stars last and with that, the 911 franchise (even tho they’re on diff networks, they’re still under Disney) would lose their only remaining mlm couple, tarlos, (pre bucktommy going canon) after they already lost Mavid from the original series.

And that brought tim to the og and deciding, along with TPTB, to explore a queer storyline with one of the two characters, buck or eddie. Eddie didn’t work out for whatever creative reasons so they went with buck. (( Basically, bi buck was never about buddie [as we’ve know lol], queer eddie being suggested was never about a future queer eddie storyline, and tim doesn’t plan on exploring a queer storyline with both characters, just one and that happened to be buck in the end))

We have all of this, coupled with the mention from oliver of hoping bucktommy could be like tarlos, and just the general care he’s put into bringing back a LI that ticks off all these boxes (is his own character, has the potential to have relationships outside of his relationship with buck, etc), so I can’t help but think that bucktommy was planned from the beginning to be a long term relationship.

Of course they left room to see audience reaction to the couple and the general storyline, but they still took the care to write a story that could extend beyond what we’ve seen in the past with either buck or eddie’s love interests so that if the reception was indeed a good one, they could move forward with the same relationship.

And now that they can see that the response has been largely positive, they’re moving full steam ahead *hopefully* to tell a great love story and tommy’s inclusion in the last two episodes definitely shows that.

Hey anon,

Hm yeah, all of this sounds very plausible to me. I think with Tarlos soon gone, having a male queer character in the og show became more of a real plan than just a passing idea and they decided on Buck as the most tenable choice. We know Tim said during the conception of the cruise arc - with not being able to get Lucy's actress back - he thought of Lou/Tommy. I think the thought process was "okay now we have a pilot - oh wait this could work for the bi Buck storyline we're planning as well" because one of the things he said was how he didn't want to just have a new random gay character to couple up with Buck. He specifically mentioned how it was hard to bring the previous LIs into the rest of the show organically and how it was even hard with Abby in the first season and that's why he wrote Maddie as Buck's sister. They wanted this LI to have a standing chance. That gives me the impression that they were at least hoping BuckTommy would get a positive response and they could treat the relationship as a long-term possibility. The initial four-eps were a test ride, not a he will only be here for four episodes. I think by the time they were writing/shooting 7x06, they were already committed to extending this to at least s8.

[natsmagi]

tbh you should just sexualize your fem Tsumugi more. I'm talking full on fetish hentai style. Put her in the open boob sweater. Have her accidentally flash while leaning fowards. Have her slip and show pantsu. Full kink with no breaks. Please shut these anons up. People trying to police your creativity like it has some sort of reflection on your morals or beliefs. I also wish you would stop answering them? or at least tagging it as anon hate because it's so sad to keep seeing people be so mean to you over and over when most of us just want to enjoy your big brain takes and drawings. Maybe I'm getting parasocial bc I get so sad seeing people hate on your Tsumugi I love her she's just like me fr!!! All that matters is that you enjoy how you draw her and I hope you don't feel pressured to change your headcanons.

HWEISUHRUHKDHG I SHOULDDDDDDDDD I SHOULD UR RIGHT ive been too prudish as of late. need to be insane again. Tbh ive made some art that was made purely bc i am a freak and insane but i feel like its never the art people would expect it to be. And thats really funny to me. like my more explicit stuff is just drawn for fun But if uve ever looked at a drawing of mine and gone "this seems kind of freakish conceptually even though the execution isnt super weird" Well thats probably bc it actually is freakish. sorry. My suggestive art is usually just for the vibes tho i DID also like. yesterday?? discover a twt acc that will sometimes post various lingerie fits SO!! MAYBE ILL DRAW SOME SOON 💪💪

AND AUGHHH I KNOWWWW in the beginning i thought itd be worth replying to people bc i was like "well this is all kind of niche. im sure they have good intentions so we might aswell talk it out" But as things progress its been made clear thats doing me or anyone else no favors. i love having discussions, so i reply to most of my asks! but i do hope that ive made myself clear enough and that we can all just continue doing our own things im sorry to hear its made you sad though!!!!! rest assured its not something that demotivates me, nor is it something that makes me feel i need to change how i draw. i do what i do because i enjoy it! and i know others enjoy it too! i will never be able to appeal to everyone, and that has never been my goal. i like having fun with others though, which is why i enjoy hearing why others might think differently than me!

but yes! i already feel ive said my piece on the whole discourse thing by now and i hate walking in circles, so even if i get negative asks about it i likely wont answer unless i feel its warranted. but! if that does happen, ill be sure to tag it! you can mute "#discourse tag" ahead of time incase i ever end up using it

[baeshijima]

guess who is back from korea 😭

[catgumi]

Megumi found him, passed out in a meadow. Pollen stuck in tufts of pinkish blonde and the sun shining down in swathes across his face, catching on scars, kissing into indents of scabbed skin. Yuuji had never looked more beautiful to him, at peace for once; no subtle tilt to his brow, no absence in his eye, nothing able to eat him from the inside out when his mind was gone, drifting to sleep. Dandelions and daffodils, framing his body in a golden silhouette that was half-removed from the corruption of Jujutsu society. A slumber in which none of the burdens of the world weighed him down, and if it were up to Megumi, he'd never wake Yuuji up again if it weren't for the fact that he would miss his warmth, his smile, his light.

Brushing petals from his lips, feeling every nerve unnumb from his fingertips to the nape of his neck — just a bit of Yuuji was all it took for Megumi to become aware of his own heart, and how it drummed in his chest to the beat of Yuuji's breaths. Dewy grass soaking into the fibres of his shirt, mud and dirt, the smell of a storm coming, but Megumi laid his head next to Yuuji's and met him once again, in a dream of better days.

(saw your reblog of that one ask i sent, you're so sweet😭 sorry i haven't been here for a bit, been vv busy, but hoping you like this little thing that i cooked up in my absence🥺 hope you've been well!!)

tgis is so sweet omg😭😭 obligatory ur writing style is so pretty n poetic,.,, ughgh ur so talented 💔💔

thjs is so refreshing considering what u did 2 seem b4 actually,,. if u turn this into a whole fic pl. pls link it im snivelling and grovelling

n dont worry ab being consistent w the asks!! i love seeing them tho,, hope uve been well as well 🫶

[fl00mie]

Hii!! Got a badd headache right now so I'm probs gonna nap in a bit but I thought it'd be nice to send another ask beforehanddd so! If you don't mind me asking, what are some of your favourite songs right now?? If you don't listen to much music or don't feel like answering that, then you can use this as a chance to justtt ramble about whatever has you excited lately :DD!! Hope you're havng a good dayy so far >:33!!

-☀️

AYY hiya!!<33 i'm just now checking my inbox sorry aah- hope you had a great nap tho! or having in any case uvu i'm sincerely a bit excited to check if there's any new ask from you everytime i open tumblr ashdhf sure thing btw! i don't mind answering those questions at all♡ ok let's see

DEFINITELY Waiting For You would be one of them ofc although i stopped listening to it very much but it's still a fricking banger💥💥 i also used to listen to songs that somehow reminded me of any utmv character/situation, y'know when your autistic ass just can't leave you alone and you think of an animatic everytime you listen to a song, some examples are tóxico by 4x3, it took me by surprise by maria mena, villain by stella jang, etc etc etc.. some of the ut ost also got me in love for sure😊 i choose some specifically from the entire ost because it speaks a lot to me (It's Raining Somewhere Else top tier, Waterfall's majestic, Dating Start strangely, Here We Are is fucking fire and terrifying at the same time, Reunited feels like home..) or they are simply very good (Dummy!, CORE, Another Medium)— UNDERVERSE WON A PLACE IN MY HEART AS WELL OBVV all the damn ost is so adictive i swear to god (nyxtheshield? more like nyxtheGOAT), lately i've been a sucker for Truce motif 'cause idrk💔💔 i feel it deep in my heart for some reason, the ascending piano feels good as hell (kind of happens to me with any piano uvs song, PIANO IS FIREE)...... and black apple is peak because it's played in the most insane battle sequence ever

ahhh i think that's enough ramble for now, thank you very much sun<3 want u to know i appreciate every single ask of you mwaahh, good night!

[olli-online]

acting like a dog i'm so happy ur back!!!!!!!

HIIII MINA <3333 ive read ur asks idk if im gonna answer tho cause im exhausted pfhfjfh MISSED U THO I HOPE UVE BEEN WELL LOVELY

[yokomation-blog]

ALRIGHT THEN! let´s start to block them out today

starting off with Doily here, then to Nat then we prepare thier eyes and Dallas and Kitube done tomorrow then thier eyes and then we can sculpt them

also here are the Steps as a good breakdown, doing this so i don´t forget thee quality im going for

Blockout

Blockout is the first half of my 3D modeling process where i set up a basic shape for my models for later sculpting, tho i do get the Teeth and claws done here too so i can save sometime doing the Retopo with those been retopo´d during the next part, i always prefer to get these done in one day and i like to do more then one

Sculpt

the Sculpting is the well 3D organic sculpting of the models of my models and will often be used as a base for the next half of the 3D process so i gotta do a damn fucking good job. this is also the most fun part of the 3D modeling process

Tho it depends on the character or creature Basic sculpting workflow for a Human(Like say Doily) is as fellow

Head And Neck:

- basic Head/SkullShape

- Eyes

- Nose

- Mouth

- Ears

- Eyes (Details)

- Nose (Details)

- Mouth (Details)

- Ears (Deatils)

- Neck

- Hair base ref(for later grooming)

Body and Limbs:

- basic muscles for the Body and Tail(if they do have a Tail)

- Basic Body sculpt

- Detailed Body Sculpt

- more detailed Body sculpt with Head and Neck attached

- Basic muscles for front limbs

- Basic front limb Sculpt

- Detailed front limb sculpt

- Basic muscles for Back limbs

- Basic Back limb Sculpt

- Detailed Back limb sculpt

Hands:

Starts out maybe with doing some Retopo on the Nails before I get to work, same story on the feet OF the character got feet for that

- Finger(it kinda depends really but mostly this is a copy and paste)

- Thumbs

- whole Hand

- Whole hand details

- Whole arm

And then I will attach the arm to the body

Feet

Same as for the hands, nails get a Retopo then I sculpt them

- basic Sculpt for the foot

- Big Toe

- Other toes

- Big Toe (Details and attaching to the foot)

- other Toes (Details and attaching to the foot)

- Foot Details

- Foot to the legs

And then I attach the leg to the body and refine the body

Retopo/UVs

Retopo is short for retopology and is basicly getting my models into a place where i can use them for Animation and textureing later on, gotta make sure the models are not too high or too low poly as i do use a subdivision modifier to smooth them out and mainly at level 1 for everything, i use UVPacker for the UV maps tho i might wanna also do a few fix´s myself too, it´s also here i get the Textures ready,

these are the numbers i use for texture size´s

1024x1024 - for teeth, nails and tounges 2048X2048 - for clothing, claws and other things 4096X4096 - mainly for skin

for anything with wings i might use a UDIM for a 2048X2048 + 2048X2048 texture size

Multires/Textureing

another fun part tho i would like to improve alot more here especially after someone told my T-Rex looked a bit too smooth, what i will oftn do here is to first get a multires sculpt done then fellowed by a good texture pianting and shader editing, getting the blender materials to look as real as i can while also keep it looking good, on the Subject of textureing pianting i found it´s easier to use a Mask and 2nd layer for the mouth and other things like head crests

i did try out a few things to make the textureing better and i hope to use these not just for these upcomming models but also in the future after haveing made this whole thread

Bakeing/Shadeing

i wasn´t always a big fan of bakeing but by setting it to 8 in the viewport and 10 in the rendering in cycles i think things have been made a whole lot easier for me when it comes to the subject of bakeing, trying my best to avoid useing a cage in blender lately as im not the biggest fan of it tho i do feel like useing a cage for the clothing might help a bit

getting the shaders to look right in eevee is always a fun challange tho with the eyes been fixed aroundthe time time before i do the textureing or after

Grooming

Grooming is the part where i add in the fur, hair and feathers to my fuzzy or fluffy critters or people, still trying to improve here i think tho im getting kinda better, the hair shaders are the hardest part to get right in eevee but i might get them to work

Basic Rigging/Weight painting

after all of that work the 3 final steps are to make the models useable for animation like giveing them an amature inside of them first step is pretty straight forwards, a basic deformation rig and wheight pianting, once all that´s done it´s over to adding in weight pianting for the corrective smooth as well as getting the clothing weight pianted useing a data tranfer, once it´s all ready i´ll get the TGT bones ready and then we do the next half

Complex Rigging/bone custom shapes

the Complex rigging stage is also where i add in custom bone shapes, it´s mainly about here adding in controls for animation and make them easy as butter to animate, things like FK/IK switchs and better controls for the mouth and arm fellow and so on,

Shape keys/animation constraints

finally i´ll add in shape keys to the arms and legs tho it´s not 100% needed eveyrwhere as i think i have gotten better with the weight pianting over this last few years

End reslut

a great model i can use for animation and poseing so i don´t have to draw my OC´s all the time whice is always nice

to keep track of my models i always have a google doc to keep everything in check

and to make sure i do a damn good job i always watch some videos on the topics of the areas, YouTube or bought ccourses

alright with that said, i´ll get to watch a video on the topic of blockout and then we can begin on Nat and Doily´s blockouts today.

[fairyhaos]

hiii darling weekly 🍒 check in ☝🏻 had enough sleep? drank enough water? I hope yes ✨ I've been so tired lately ☹️ I've been waking up so many times at night thinking I missed my alarm lmao and it suddenly got SO HOT here, like summer weather ??? And the heat always makes me feel so slow and it kinda gives me brain fog but other than that everything's good jfhddh I'm actually seeing good results at work so I'm really happy about that, I hope you get good results too very soon 💞💞💞💞💞

ALSO WTF THE PICS FOR THE SVT ALBUM DID YOU SEE SEOKMIN'S HAT HIW CUTEEEEEEE AND THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD AND BOYFRIEND™

- 🍒

cherry anon my dearest!!!!!!! i have indeed been sleeping well jdhfhd the tiredness must be an international thing pls like ive just been so tired these days so ive been going to bed at like 10pm 😭 also nooo the missing alarm fear pls i getchu so bad !!! i hope u were able to sleep well over the weekend bc that fear rlly sucks 💔

ALSO YOU STAY HYDRATED TOO OKAY ??? thankfully the weather hasn't gotten too hot over here (it's been raining the entire week lmao) but you gotta take care of yourself alright >:(( im glad that uve been doing well tho hehe and thanku for your support! im always cheering u on tooo <33

AND YES HOLY FUCK I DID SEE THE PHOTOS AHHH THE LITTLE WHALE HAT THAT DEEKAY HAS IS SOOO ADORABLE AND THAT???? BLUSH??.???? ENDING ME OH MYNGKFHDJF

[lxnarphase]

hey lunar :] was off of tumblr for a few days hru !! and wdym ur posts got flagged :0 I ALSO DIDNT SEE THAT RECENT ONE W THE LIPSTICK TODAYY REBWJSNWJ what happened? TT hope uve been well tho :> tbh yesterday was kinda emotionally tiring ughhh (where’s nanami when u need to be taken care of fr) (or gojo? choso or hiromi…..)

- 🧸

a BUNCH of my posts got marked as mature all at once and it was really really weird- BUT im not too iffied by it, i just think it means my blog is being surpressed for the alorgithm, dare i say shadow banned since it seems i havent been showing up on my own dash or even in the tags lately

BUT i hope it'll be fixed soon, i have been working on a bunch of asks and am just waiting to see if anything changes soon and if not i'll just post them anyways

but its so good to see you again 🧸 nonnie!! i hope you've been taking care of yourself, i'm sorry you had a rough day and if theres anything i can do to help, i'm all ears 🤍